As usual, apologies for the delays in posts! My bad. I must tell myself that I should update this blog at least five times a week, but then, out of nowhere–I don’t. Until 1AM on a Thursday morning. Regardless, I guess I can pick up where I left off last time. Halloween. How was yours? I don’t even really feel like I have to tell you I had a blast because if you’ve seen the Facebook pictures, you know I did. I have to say, as a child, Christmas was always my favorite holiday, but in my adult life it’s definitely a tie between Halloween, New Years Eve, and possibly even Thanksgiving.
November was a pretty quiet month all around. My life in Baltimore is very low-key for the most part. I pretty much split my time between work, the gym, cooking, reading, exploring the city and the occasional night out. There was a Groupon for unlimited access for thirty days to a really nice gym for only $25. I definitely got my $25 worth, I can’t believe it was that cheap but it was a great find and running helped me keep stress at bay. I started off barely being able to run one mile on the treadmill and now I can run just over three!
What else happened in November? Thanksgiving, right. Have you ever had the feeling a day was just going to be awful? I was dreading Thanksgiving so much. The combination of being in a city where I only know a handful of people and not having my dad’s famous chicken n’ dumplings (which he claimed were his best ever this year) and missing my brother, and missing my mom all made me feel like I would just want to sleep all day. Initially, that is what I had planned to do, but as Thanksgiving got closer and closer I really couldn’t bear the thought of just giving up and not even attempting to comfort myself. So I decided that I would make a small Thanksgiving dinner for myself the night before. I decided on a game hen with cranberry-walnut stuffing, homemade mashed potatoes and gravy, and I attempted to make one of my favorites that my mom used to make, her macaroni and cheese.
I was surprised that dinner turned out so well. It was fun to honor my mom and be able to think of her and what she would do while I was making it. It was much better than just wishing I had a taste of home. I hate that I wasn’t more interested in cooking when she was alive. She would’ve appreciated it.
Thanksgiving day was an unexpected surprise. As someone who doesn’t spend a lot of time with families outside of my own, I thought for sure I was going to feel uncomfortable and not really know anyone or have anyone to talk to other than the 2 to 5 people that I knew at any given time. However, I was blown away at the hospitality everywhere I was on Thanksgiving. I honestly have never felt so comfortable around so many people I met only minutes after arriving at their house. I got to hold babies (that’s right, two!), gorge myself on a ridiculous amount of pecan pie, hear wild and crazy stories and most importantly, laugh. All day. It was definitely a situation where I knew that I was where I was supposed to be at that moment. I had an absolutely wonderful Thanksgiving and I hope that you all did as well.
So, I mentioned in an earlier post that I wanted to leave Baltimore on my own terms. I did get to set them, I just didn’t give anyone much of a head’s up. I have known since about halfway through October that I was moving back to Dallas on December 10. My time from mid-March to the end of September was about doing what I wanted and needed to do as a daughter and as a sister. While most of it was horrifying, it was necessary and if given the choice, I would still choose the same way. I feel like the last two months here have at least allowed me to develop a few coping skills and also given me the feeling that my time is my own again. I certainly have a new perspective(I didn’t necessarily want one, but what are ya gonna do?) and I think I can go home now with at least a slightly more positive outlook. Damn, this place was fun though. I look back and can’t believe I moved here with one suitcase, never having set foot in this state before, knowing only two other people in the entire city.
Next time, I will share some details about my long trip in NYC.
A lot was luck, but I can offer a few tips and suggestions on how I visited one of the most expensive cities in America for five days having only about $300 allotted for the entire trip. That’ll have to wait though, I have to pack all day! Til next time!!